I Need Some Help to Figure this Poem out?

well for the second poem.....it sounds like as if someone was hurt on the inside (like emotionally ) and they couldnt feel the heat of happiness......they felt 'numb' and as if they could not go on...and then all that turned into something else. (Hate or happiness or understandment or peace or forgiveness or hope or sadness or pain or a broken heart just depends on how u look at it)